times are changing.

with another year gone, the memories
linger in "what was" and the future holds
"what may be". i don't really know whats
going on in my life, but something is going
maybe its a loss, maybe its fear. maybe its just
the end of a good year. i'll miss it. but i wont
misss ALL of it. time is definitely moving forward
and for some reason i just want it to stop.
with my sister gone, it just seems different
my family seems different, i feel different
everything feels different
its just hard to except that times are changing
and nothing lasts forever.

its hard to say goodbye, but its even harder to let go.

more to come.
this is just an appetizer

paz con tigo,
MARC

its definitely the end.

BEFORE YOU START READING THIS PLAY THE SONG "AVE MARIA" AND THEN READ ON:
IT MAKES A BETTER EFFECT)

I Am...Sasha Fierce


i started out college thinking that life was going to be hard, but now that my
first semesters over, i've realized its even worse than i had thought at first.
and its not going to get any better from here on out.

my first semester of college was an experience like no other. when i think of it,
my first semester was split up in two parts: the fun part and the school part.
obvously the school part is what still gets me. trying to study so hard for tests
to only find out you get f's on them is so not what i expected. school is hard and
thats what sucks, its just going to stay the same until i leave and graduate.
i guess i can't really decribe how it is. its always this constant pressure on you
to get the best grades possible. but how when theres so many people trying to compete
with you and all you can do is try. its just hard. one second you can be there and
another second you can be gone. and why? because a certain class (thats not important)
happens to be the biggest obstacle to you to get to the program? school can be
F'ed up. but i guess thats just me complaining.

but aside from school, i'd rather spend my time talking about the fun part of my
first semester of college. to start off, i didnt find it hard to transition from
high school to college because of my high school friends. eric, nikki, claudette, and joanne (aside from kristina and sam; because i see them everyday) really helped me through the transition. having them constantly care, having them constanly there, and constantly talking to them made me feel like they still cared. i never felt alone
and i'm happy they're my best friends =]. to know that you can be far apart and
still talk like you see them everyday is when you know that you've got a good thing
or things in your life. thanks guys, you are my bff's for life. and even though i
dont talk to everyone everyday, when i do talk to you: i love you. fio, galia,
tracey c., carissa, gonda, jen, and darlene i'm talking about you. even though i dont
talk to you daily, when i get the chance too: its amazing. thank you for also
keeping me sane. =] i couldnt do it without you.

i have to add a disclaimer. lol. i want to especially mention ballada and sam.
without these two cutes, i'd kill myself on that mountain. i want to specially thank
them for keeping me sane and helping me to get through every hell day at school.
they're pretty much why i can get up to go to school: because of these two bitches. i know that they'll be there for me and i love you guys so much you have no idea!

anyways my new friends are also a fun part of my college experience. i love you CRU.
you're to many to name! but thanks too for being there. tiffany, ballada, sam, rosanna, adrienne and josh. thanks for everything. the last weeks of school were
some good times only because of you. the laughs, cry's, and crazyness is something
i'll always remember. thanks to you guys i've been able to keep myself on the mount.
and without you guys i wouldnt wake up to go to that "hell hole." our late night
eating runs, our random outings and our infinite amount of laughs, cry's, and serious
talks with the sexual parts too lol. thanks so much for helping me through it all.
and i can't forget all those people i actually shared REAL and TRUE talks with:
im talking about you guys that were part of our "mini kairos." lol thanks for
listening and thanks for understanding. i love you guys (you know who you
are: all of us in my room that one random night. but i'll mention you guys again: sam, kristina, justine, adrienne, josh, and joflo)

pretty much the fun part of my first semester was definitely FRIENDS. my first roomie
scooter, my newly found friends from CASA, pretty much the people at the mount are
what makes it fun. so thanks.

but of course i couldnt forget the best people in life: my pink ladies (coco, kim, mace).
KIMMIE and MACEY especially i really do love you guys so much. thank you
for letting me... be me. =]

but now that my first semester is over, i've realized that i'm constantly being
surrounded by great people. i'm really lucky. and even if i dont see
everyone next semester i'm happy to have shared such a good first semester with you.
it really is the end of a good semester, thank you GOD.
but im sure i will seee you when i see you.

paz con tigo,
MARC

anticipation and excitement.

school is coming to an end. its our last week of school full of finals.
well not exactly full. but i just can't wait to get out!
thursday after anat final = heaven. this first semester of college was definitely
fun because of the people. but it was also very hard... so im really happy to
get away from it all. i feel i deserve a break. a few more days...
can't wait. see you soon cupcutes: claudi, tracey, nikki, carissa, elisha and sam & ballada, i'll see you guys more. see you providence. we should have a reunion.
and cru, disneyland! see you there.

college nights.

theres nothing like those college nights.
its thursday night with nothing to do and no transportation to the clubs.
what to do? bring the party to us. laughs, more laughs, pictures, drinks
and a pretty ole good time with the friends. theres nothing
like those days! the college nights when you're room becomes the party
and where people are there to crash right after. taking care of your friends who
are totally shitfaced and are totally out of it. life wouldnt be complete
with those college nights. thats what its all about, the pure enjoyment of life and fun. nothing can can better than this. it may not be your proudest
moment, being all gone. but its definitely a moment to remember.
life at its best. thanks college, and heres to the night. may it be remembered and never forgotten. we all need a little fun in our lives. live, laugh, love, take pics, get shitfaced, laugh somemore, video tape yourself on a mac, laugh again, drink, eat, and crash.
live it up, you only get one chance.


paz con tigo,
MARC

waiting for the world to CHANGE.

its funny how when you move two steps forward, it seems to take you 5 steps backward.
the recent news in our country has really gotten to make me think about the world.
the recent election has been probably the hottest topic around. and Obamas win has
really touched me. not because i'm democratic or republican, but because i feel like
its a move forward for mankind. our first black president, who couldnt be any
happier? what does this tell you? that things are CHANGING. thank GOD. its about
time! why does the minority have to feel like the odd ball out. well, guess what.. not anymore. =]
but along with this victory came another defeat. although we've moved a step away from racism,
i feel like we've moved 10 steps closer to discrimination. how so? easy, PROP 8.
sure, we may have defeated racial dicrimination but have we defeated all discrimination?
nope! why does it matter if you are in a same sex marriage? its upsetting that
people have the power to deny someone the right to marry the person they love, whether or not
if they're the same sex. i thought marriage was about LOVE, have people forgotten?
not that im bagging on you if you voted yes on PROP 8, its just sucks.
what would you do if someone told you you couldnt marry someone you love?
if you dont like gay marriage, then don't marry a gay person. plain and simple.
im all about equality and rights and although OBAMA's win is a step forward, yes on prop 8 is just a step backward.

this is not written because its about me or because its about someone i know,
this blog is just about the people out there who just want live like you and me.
EQUALITY... isnt that what we all want?

paz con tigo,
MARC

funs over, back to work.

ohkay, so this week was pretty much my chill week. i went out
every single day, whether it was a late night food run or hanging
out with my "CRU". but now that this week has come to an end, the last month of
school is starting to kick into high gear. everyday next week and the weeks after there is a test, quiz, or presentation, and even project. the next week is full
with anatomy lab quizzes, an anatomy lecture test, and a micro quiz. all of which
i need to ACE. but its hard and thats the problem. this is just so hard. no matter
what i try to do, i feel like its never enough. school has become my life.
it seems like theres no time to have fun anymore. and when i get the chance, it
barely counts as fun. i dont know what im trying to say but.. yeah.

ahh the stress is coming. can't wait till its all over.

sorry it always talk about this school stuff
but it really is a big deal. anyways, i hope you're okay.

have fun stay safe and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

paz con tigo,
MARC

things have changed.

i dont know what it is, but definitely things have changed.
not only school, but my life, and basically me.
on one hand theres my personal life: im finally okay
thanks to kimmie and macey. and btw i love you guys.
with the whole school thing, things seem different:
people, friends, school. i feel like im starting to get left
behind with all the grades. i feel like im starting to go down
with my grades. and it feels like i've lost my motivation to
study. life is difficult and i can't wait to go but then i realize that my friends aren't going to leave me behind, the ones that really care. i know i got my msmc friends like sam and ballada and of course my "CRU". but im starting to feel that
i might be that one person who doesnt cut it. but enough negativity its time to
focus on positivity. i will make it, i promise. =]

uhhh its just one of those times when life gets too much.
i guess all i need is that extra kick and im good.
im done, and thanks for reading.

paz con tigo,
MARC