its not the mount, its a fucking mountain!

ohhhhkayyy, so its been like so long since i've written in this and i believe its about time to do so.
let me update you on whats happened so far. i finally moved into my dorm room, so i guess im kinda
on my own. i've met different people. some new friendships have been created, and some old friendships
have been tested. its not dramatic or anything but the friends in my life are the ones i want. and im good with that.
school has begun, and like i predicted... its hard. nothing can better explain it than that word.
nursing is exactly what i've been warned about. school is harder for me than it has ever been.
the only breaks i feel i ever get is the time i have to sleep, which ranges from 4-6 hours. i have to admit
i've spent some time chillin and talkin with people instead of studying, but college is also about fun, right?
but school is getting worse, micro and anatomy are enough to handle but add both labs, psych papers, english essays, and spr
freshmen intro to college classes... and what do you get, a big ass headache. im still tryna balance all my school work in with some
leisure time but it just gets crazy. i hope i get into the nursing program by the end of my freshmen year. i really need that to happen. but all i can do is try my best in school and pray that it all works out for my benefit.

college, it definitely is a challenge and it really is different from high school.
ill see you guyys later, pray for me and for all the nurses in the world lol. =]



paz con tigo,
MARC

goodbye to yesterday

i've realized. things arent going to be the same anymore.
i mean school wise. it finally hit me that
im not going to be with the people who helped
me become me the past four years. its so hard
to take in. not seeing my friends that ive
grown so accustomed to being there.

i dont know what it is. but it sucks. im
definitely gonna miss all our times
together, the good and the bad.

i dont know what other way to say this,
but i misss high school. i dont miss the
dumb drama and all the stupid bitches.
but i will definitely miss the amazing and
unforgettable times i had with my closest friends.
this blog is dedicated to you guys:
my cupcutes, MAFIA, all of asia, all my BFFs,
all of my friends who i will truly miss.

i can never forget my high school friends.
its been so clearly stated to me by alot of
older people ive come across. they all say the same thing,
your high school friends are the friends
that you keep close to you the rest of your life.
its just so difficult to think that i wont be
seeing their faces daily anymore.

i dont know what it is, but im just missing my high school experience.

its just so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

JULY 25th = HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

First of all,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!

it finally came. eighteen. the year you can
call yourself an adult. but with the age come
responsibilities. responsibilities im not
sure i can handle. but thats what growing up comes with...
i'm eighteen and as ready as i can be.
hello world, are you ready ?




& also
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEE!







p.s. today marks one month till the start of MSMC death. =] way to celebrate

IM SO FUCKING OVER IT.

i dont care anymore.
fuck it.

ugh.













i just want to say i hate everyone, except some people.

birthday wish list.

wow the things i WANT. of course i dont NEED most
of this stuff, but i def want it. =]


levis 511 skinny jeans


ugg australia
classic short boot


ugg australia
byron mocassin ish type thing



college stuff from target or bed bath & beyond



&what i actually do NEED, MONEY =]
i think u all know how it looks like =]

casual then serious.

im getting married! hahaha NOT!
but my sister is and its getting even more intense.
kimmie and i did the cd giveaways and finally finished.
woo! the invitations were sent out today! and the day
keeps getting closer and closer. marriage has become a big
topic that i happen to come across.

maybe its because i love the show TORI & DEAN : HOME SWEET HOLLYWOOD.

and this show is all about their marriage.
i have no reason why i love it, but i do. i like tori spelling.
shes a cutie and her whole family is too.

i also find myself watching platinum weddings
and briezilla.
hahaha okay, so having nothing to do
over summer has made me a couch potato who
watches other peoples lives. i dont know what it is,
but weddings are happy times and i guess thats why i watch
them, they make me happy.

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okay, so enough with the marriage talk. time to talk about me, again. lol.

i dont know what it is, but my moods are so off. one moment
im really happy with everyone and everything. the other second when i have
a chance to think, i get into this melancholy mood. i dont know
what it is, but thinking about my life troubles me. whats going
to happen next. will i get married? is life gonna be good for me
when i get older? these questions trouble me to the extent that i no longer
want to grow older. i feel that staying where i am now is a safe place.
the risk of growing older and not knowing whats next makes me confused.
the future is a big and scary place i dont want to face. but all i need
is that leap of faith and im there. but for now, i think im good
on staying on the safe side. maybe ill meet the person who will push me
past the limit. or maybe i've already meet them. i guess only
time can tell. but wait, is that time now, or never?


paz con tigo,
MARC

just one of those ordinary days.

yesterday(july 17):

ok so i've been pondering about what to do on my 18th birthday.
i feel like actually doing something, like forreal.
hmmm, what to do? laser tag? just chill and shop
and watch movies (so 16th birthday)? or whaaaat.

well for sure im gonna do something during the day.
tracey, sam and i are gonna go college shopping.
but im thinking why not bring along more
cuties. the more the merrier right?

well i dont know what to do? any suggestions?

anyway so my day was quite BORING i woke up did my
tv business, fixed up and went to target and big lots.
i bought sweet tea =] asb camp status and pretty much
did nothing else.

but ive been thinking what i want for my birthday
nd money!!! =] is the first thing that comes to mind.
but i also want other things. i like feeling special on my birthday
therefore i like big things like: balloon bouquets, birthday pins that say
its my birthday or birthday boy, pinatas, i never got one.
like i like stuff that makes me feel special.
but i would love money as a gift or anything for college
or clothes, or yeah. i want alot of expensive things too
like ugg boots and ugg mocassin tpye things called byron.
i want alot but ask me and ill tell you.

bye

paz contigo,
MARC