im getting married! hahaha NOT!
but my sister is and its getting even more intense.
kimmie and i did the cd giveaways and finally finished.
woo! the invitations were sent out today! and the day
keeps getting closer and closer. marriage has become a big
topic that i happen to come across.
maybe its because i love the show TORI & DEAN : HOME SWEET HOLLYWOOD.
and this show is all about their marriage.
i have no reason why i love it, but i do. i like tori spelling.
shes a cutie and her whole family is too.
i also find myself watching platinum weddings
and briezilla.
hahaha okay, so having nothing to do
over summer has made me a couch potato who
watches other peoples lives. i dont know what it is,
but weddings are happy times and i guess thats why i watch
them, they make me happy.
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okay, so enough with the marriage talk. time to talk about me, again. lol.
i dont know what it is, but my moods are so off. one moment
im really happy with everyone and everything. the other second when i have
a chance to think, i get into this melancholy mood. i dont know
what it is, but thinking about my life troubles me. whats going
to happen next. will i get married? is life gonna be good for me
when i get older? these questions trouble me to the extent that i no longer
want to grow older. i feel that staying where i am now is a safe place.
the risk of growing older and not knowing whats next makes me confused.
the future is a big and scary place i dont want to face. but all i need
is that leap of faith and im there. but for now, i think im good
on staying on the safe side. maybe ill meet the person who will push me
past the limit. or maybe i've already meet them. i guess only
time can tell. but wait, is that time now, or never?
paz con tigo,
MARC
